Driver's License

So I took my written for my license today and I passed.. :/
I know I'm supposed to be really happy, but in all honesty, I really didn't and still don't want my license. You see, just over a year ago when I first could have got my license, I was in an insane car accident. I almost died actually. It's a miracle I didn't or wasn't at least terribly injured.
Every since that accident, I have had absolutely no desire to be behind the wheel. I wasn't even the one driving when we were in that accident. My mom was driving. Even still, before I was stoked about driving because I knew that I was a good defensive driver. But since that accident wasn't our fault, it made me realize that I could be the best driver in the world and still almost die.
Ehh... my dad had me drive home for practice and he wants me to go out and practice again this evening. I know I need to practice in order to pass and I really do want the freedom of having my license.
But even with all the freedom I would get, it doesn't over power my fear.